Where Things Stand.... 2008

OK, so this is about a year since I first started this blog. I read the old blogs I posted and laugh at myself, hard. Things have changed SO much from my last postings. All changes for the better too.

OK, so last ya'll had heard i was in Orange County, i had some issues with my friend Stacey and had to move in June, which i did to a nice condo with a family where i rented a room. that worked out rather well actually and was a lot cheaper than renting the apt from stacey. Stopped talking to the marine after i found out the real reason he was in japan, not good. My job because a psychotic mess after i took the promotion to Home Care Services Manager. all sorts of things happening.

I had gotten my promotion at my last job to Home Care Services Manager, which at first was great. Then things got insane there. My boss, and friend, Michelle and i were basically fighting everyday, she would make veiled threats and things like that but it was just insanity. I stuck it out there from when i first got the admin assistant job in Feb til the middle of Nov. which leads me to the next chapter of my update.

I have a friend, named Chris, who is now my boyfriend. and amazment of all amazments, I am actually HAPPY!!! I met him about 3 or 4 years ago on an online dating site. We hit it off pretty well from the get go. He's a sweet, somewhat gruff and loving guy. He's never been anything but honest with me, sometimes brutally so, and he's just a great guy. well, eventually he started seeing someone else so he tried to hook me up with his best friend, haha. Which was sweet because Mike is a doll too in a different way. I have been in contact with both of them on and off over the years and love them both dearly. Anyway, this summer he and i started talking again online. his girlfriend broke up with him, i was single again... and after a while he came down from Nor cal to visit me for a weekend, then a few weeks later i went up to see him for a weekend, then we broke it off for a brief moment, then we got back together, he asked me to move in with him, and voila, here i am. I moved up here in mid Nov, just before Thanksgiving.

I live in Santa Clara now with him. We have our own apartment, i got a new job working in childcare again, he has a great job that he loves. Things have just settled into a happy feeling of contentment. I've had a thing for him since we started talking years ago. He's the only person i ever answered phone calls from at 130 in the morning from a dead sleep and not cussed them out or threatened bodily harm. And he's been great to me since I've been with him. And my goodness I love him like I've never thought I'd be able to love anyone in my life. If God is willing this will be the last time i will have to start my life over again. I can actually picture myself spending, dare i say it, my life with this man.

i'd say the only thing that could ruin things for me now is my stupid insecurities that creep up once in awhile. This is the first guy that i've been with that i know wouldn't cheat on me or betray me. That's not his character or his nature in anyway. Though thanks to all my ex's and their cheating ways i become worried or anxious sometimes. That whole what if, why, and other such stupid thoughts come up into my mind. I hate it, i really do. But I am working on killing those thoughts. This is a man i love, and cherish not only for this relationship but for the good friendship we've had all along, and I would do anything to keep those things. So for the sake of our relationship, friendship and his love, I am working on keeping those thoughts out of my mind.

OK. So the year is starting out here with a bang so far. I am hopeful that things will only get better from here on out...... Hope you all have a great and happy 2008....