For Chris, a final goodbye...

ok..... so now what? I know you'll never read this but I have to write it to close it out for good.


So I do have to start over agian. I have. I'm doing pretty well too. Not fantastic, but good enough for now.

I still don't have an explination for what happened or why, nor do i want one at this point. Things didn't work out, you weren't as happy as you said you were. I can't do anything about it. All I can do is move forward and i have, will, am. I still care for you and I always will probably, but I can't live to make others happy. I am thinking of myself now and how I will be happy and what i will do next. I wish you the best, I hope you figure out what it is you want in life and get it. I hope you'll be healthy and happy and feel whole. I miss you at times, but it's lessening. I want to be friends, but then again i don't know if I could ever trust you even just as a friend or if I could look at you. MAybe one day. All in all I just wanted to say that I hope things work out for you in the end.

Love,
Me